hari raya aidil adha paling trok bagi ku

hari raya taun tok sungguh malang bagi ku.why nya polah ku gtok!;'(.pagi tadi ku bangun.abang saudara ku mdh min smbhyg .ku pn alu mandik n psg bju trus ku g masjid an cdak.ku duduk jak tme ya.dhya ku msj an grek ku.syg bgn gk:) dgn lembut ku grak nya.nya mdh nya dh bgn.ku suruh nya g mandik.lepas hbis smbhyg bru nya msj ku.nya mdh nya kt rumah kwn nya.perluka nya gya.salu nya pas mdk nya kn pdh x hal ku sbr jak.dhya nya mdh busy.ku aok jak.ne tau nya busy an mask ka blaja ka apa.skali kelua an kwn2 nya mdh.xdpt ka nya text ku?xdpt ka nya mdh?nya mdh nya nk hlg stress tncion xmok mara2 ku.p ku eran.ku 2 3 ary tok ku jga aty nya xda wat nya gya.maybe da boi nak?myb mok enjoi glak ba.dh masa ku an nya bkn dpt lmk pn.xpa la.ku ne tau pa nya wat tdk nak.dhya ku kol nya.nya mara ku jak2.seolah2 ku polah slh .maka xda pn.dhya ku g nanga orng sembeleh lembu.power pnya lembu ya.ku berdiri nanga.dhya ku trus blt n mndk.mok g serian.ku menahan jak dlm aty.hope nya kan eply msj ku,akn kol ku.ku asa ku xprnh d syg nya eh,di care sal nya,dicinta nya.pnh xnya pk aty ku.pnh x.ku pn aty terlalu anco asa.ku bkn dpt pndm suma ba.ku bkn mnusia xda aty.ku just berharap ku tok dicare ,dicinta,disyg.pnh x nya pk sal ya?ku asa xda.ku tok mcm doll bg nya.bila diperlukan baru ada,bila xperlu x digago lngsung,:'( pnh x nya pk slmk tok apa ku snggup wat k nya ya,ya tndanya ku care sal nya cnta bna2 sal nya.ku tok x layak ka grek an nya smpe byk glak dugaan gtok.pa slh ku.slh kah ku mok bhgia an orng yg ku cnta?;'(this word from myself to her,
im maybe not perfect 4 u,but i will try my best 4 u
im maybe the boy tat u not really love but ur the girl im really love
im maybe not important in ur life but ur the most important in my life
im maybe not the boy u care,but ur the girl always i care
im maybe ur monkey/puppy love but 4 me ur my love until i die
im maybe not so special in ur heart,but ur the most special girl in my life
If I could reach up and hold a star for every time you've made me smile, the entire evening sky would be in the palm of my hand.

To my love,
You wont believe how much I love you!
I want nothing more than for you to realize just how much I want and need you in my life, now and for all time. You are the only girl I have ever loved and it will remain that way forever!
From the day I know you, on that may day in 2009, I fell in love with you and my love has continued to grow ever since and it will never stop!!
I miss you so much when we are apart and even when we are together, I miss you!!
u are, my sweetheart, my lover ..........by reading this, I hope you understand that you are the only one for me and always will be, there's only room for one girl in my heart and in my dreams and that's you!
All my love, always and forever.my love to u never change from past until now.im really want u with me until the last of my breathe.if one day i cannot get married with you,please keep me in ur heart,please dun ever throw it.i will stay 4ever in ur heart.;'(
You are the foundation of my life
You are the one from where I start and where I end.
Without you in my life
I am a rose without smell,
a pond without water,
a sky without stars,
I can't take a breath without taking one for you.
You are the air I breathe,
you are the touch I feel,
you are life I seek
you complete me.
You are my heaven on earth,
without you I am a soul without existence
you're my world
my universe
my life.
I LOVE YOU WITH all my heart ,and im really mean it what i say:'(
thats the only word i can say.
do u really love me syg?do u ever care about me?do u think how i feel?do u think about my heart?do im the boy ur really love?do im the person that important in ur life?do i already in ur heart?im really sad.why you make me crying on this raya?this raya already suck for me.yeahhhh.im never crying about a girl or my girlfriend but ur different.only u can make me cry because ur so special in my heart n ur everything 4 me.syg,b owes mengalah k nya,p please lah pk gne asa aty b.skit pn x hal.asal ada.b bsyukur mn nya pk skit pn jd la;'(b xdpt nak nahan suma syg.b cyg nya glak2.i just want u in my life.i hope one day i can get married with u n forever with u.hope will be reality.will u be mine owes syg?will u be my wife?will u loved me like the way i love u?will u always beside me?will u owes with me?im really afraid u will leave me,u will do the thing i dont like.im really afraid to losing u.im really afraid.;'(i dun want other girl.i want u.no one can replace u in my heart;'(i hope u will always love me until my last breath..

my love story

cinta pertama selalu nya cinta yang sangat beerti bagi seseorang.seumur hidup ku,dari form 3 ku pandey bercouple2 hingga form 5 xpernah ku jumpa cinta pertama bagiku.dolok,ku x pernah nak pndy setia,jujur,ataupun cinta or syg kepada couple ku.ku always memainkan aty cdak.ku owes pasang banyak couple,skandal.time dating,macam2 cara ku tapok hp ku dri couple ku cek.time dating kat pasar,shoping complex owes berhati2 takut grek2 ku laen nanga ku an mpuan laen.memang best mun kta gya.p penah x pk kan aty cdak?ku salu kua jwak bila grek ku ajak hby juh dating.ku owes kua.dalam seminggu seminggu ya jwak ku kelua bertukar2 grek.tapi semua ya dah berubah sejak ku kenal seorang perempuan dalam frienster.ku masa ya masih seorang player.ku terjumpa cgek friendster masa ku form 5.19.04.2009  ku jmpa frienster nya.ku xtau pahal ku beriya2 nak minta num nya.lepas ku add nya,ku minta numm nya.nya jual mahal.tapi ku tetap menunngu and owes meminta tampa putus asa.last2 pada 23.04 nya beri jwak num nya.nya k celcom .masa ya ku k digi.ku x ksah.trus ku msj2 nya.ku kol nya.hmpir stiap masa.sebelum 1.05,ku trus brek an suma grek ku.1.05 ku dah berkapel dgn nya.ku trus berjanji kat diri ku,ku akan ubah perangai ku.ku jujo dengan nya tentng prangei ku dlok.ku xmok ulangi perangai setan ku ya.cinta pertama ku pn bermula.ku sangat happi bila nya menerima ku jadi kapel nya.ku dengan nya owes mesej.owes kol nya.hmpir stiap masa.masa ku blt dr solah trus ku mesej nya.xpenah ku cm ya dlok.tiba2 ku stat pndy kontrol nya stat jga nya stat care sal swg mpuan.im really love her so much.dah sebulan ya,ada swg kwn mpuan ku madah,amin,grek ktk ya eh kapel an kazen mek.mek bna2 terkjut.mek marah kwn mek ya.mek x cyk.mek dyam kan diri.dh ya mek nanya grek mek.smpei mek kua aek mata bila orng mdh cmya.mek xpenah guguk aek mata dmi grek xpnh lngsung.cuma nya.lastly nya jujo.nya ngakuk.mek  hnya dapt mendyamkan diri n mek owes nanya an nya''why hny molah bie gtok?apa salah bie kat nya?apa yg x cukup sal bie?bie tok hnya apa bg nya?nya jawab''hny x cyk bie.hny takt hny dlok dpermaen kan.coz bie bekas player.ku jwb.xpa.bie maafkan hny but please dont do it again.ku x cyk diriku bleh berlembut gtok lpas dibuat gya.hurm.dhya ku an nya hapii2.seminngu dhya,nya kua an kwn mpuan nya n swg laki tok.ku benarkan jak.ku control nya pn coz ku tkt akan khilngn nya.takut orng laki mngatal dgn nya.ku kuat jeles sjak kapel an cinta ptaama ku ya tek.nya mdh ku cnta orng laen.ku x cnta kw lagi.malam ya jwak ku trus memujuk nya jgn tngalkan bie,please,im begging u.sejak ya nya layan ku mok xmok jak coz dah da cnta yg laen.laki ya x sdar grek ku cnta nya ya..ku hnya menangis n brasa sangat sakit di dlm aty.ku hnya menahan.seorng gdis yg ku bna2 cnta snggup buat ku gya.lepas ya,ada gk kes.nya owes minta brek an ku n wat2 cm2 crita supaya ku tok nampak curng di mata nya.tapi ku ttp sbr jak.ku ttp mau an nya smpe bila2 pn n gne2 pn nya molah ku..coz wat?coz im really love her.ada orang ngakuk ku tok grek mpuan ya p jujo ku mdh ku xknal n bkn grek ku.byk kali bnda ya happen p ku owes try menahan kn relation tok.hurm.smpe lah bulan 2 2010 ku dgn nya brek off pling lmk.dlok brek ,smbg brek smbg byk kali dh.bukan ku mnta nya mnta.tapi pa leh wat.ku hnya mampu berdoa masa ya.maybe karma?coz ku pnh buat mpuan gya:'(now pbuatan jaek ku suma dh d blas.bulan 2 ya nya kwn rapat an swg miak tok.miak ya nanya an ku,kw mseh grek nya ka.ku mdh aok.mseh..dhya ku cek fcebook.she in relationship with him?wtf?!masa ya ku bruk balit jalan an kwn2 ku.ku ng memangis nanga ya.ku kol nya ku msj nya p nya x ankt x eply.ku mseh smpb gmbr nya.ku trus tunggu n menungu nya smpe bulan8 teq.nya pdh nya single.ku rasa sngt happi even masa dlok ya sngt menyaktkn aty ku.ku cre sal nya.ku owes kol nya.owes keluarkan kata2 yg romantc 4 nya.akhirnya jd milikku.ku harap nya bubah ;..akhir nya ya bubah bila kapel an ku.ku bsyukur glak2.3 bulan berlalu,ku mkin kuat jeles tba2.ku xtau phl.nya owes mdh bo polah ayg stress please la.dhya mak nya gk slhkn ku,n cm x ska ku.hurm.nya owes madh lpaskn ayg mn b owes molh ayg gtok.ku xtau pa slh ku.kontrol?owes ngco nya?hurm.xtau ku.ku mok luahkan pa ku asa suma,ku x dpt.mun ku luahkan nya mula nanes2 n off hp.xangkt ku kol,x eply msj ku.mun ku marah nya mkin gk trok.hm.xpnh ku mara nya.ku xdpt coz ku terlalu cyg kan nya.rtok nya g birthday party.nya k dress n leging,mdh blt kol.5.30.nya mdh lince cya x bgus.hm.tme nya kat cya,cda nya gago an hp nya.tdk dpt2 ku kol x angkt2 hmm.6.30 nya smpe umah.nya mdh hp nya lm beg.xsdar.hm.ku hnya bersbr.ku xmok kae2 gk.ku tau kmkowg salu kae2.bia ku mgalah2 jak2.orng dh enjoi ne duli orng kt ctok.hm.seenjoi2 nya ku ku kan owes msj nya ku xmok nya pk bkn2.ku mok jaga aty nya ba excpt tme ku ujian or busy sal study or fmili.please syg,i hope u will take gud care of my heart too.please dont hurt my heart .im anymore.do u ever love me syg?i owes ask.ayg,do u love me?always  i said to her.everyday.she said dont be childish oke.hm.i ask like tat coz i want u to answer tat.tat make me fell happi u know.i know we  never meet.tme form 5 owes busy,no bujet,no lesen,if i have money if i have lesen i already go to ur place n owes tmankn ayg tau x.brani b jmpa parents nya mntk restu2kn lah hubungn mek 2.owes berdoa ya.n ku kan mnta maaf kt parentsnya mun ku da wat slh or wat anak nya  sakit aty oleh ku.hurm.b x mntk pa2 pn dr nya.hope u always love me,owes be mine n i hope this relationship smpe ke kawen.i just want u ayg.i hope u know wat ur positon ryte?ur my couple.don ever secret lie unfaithful to me:( dun play my heart again k.;'(.b owes hope nya kn pdh an b.b,ayg owes love nya.ayg owes cyg nya.ayg kan an b pey bla2.i want to hear tat coz im really dun want to lose u syg.i hope we stay together k cyg :'(.end story smpe ctok jak la(only half of the story i tell);'(